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Li Jingze once said: “Many people claimed in the 1980s, and the 1990s seemed to have become unclaimed. Unclaimed to some extent because the 1990s were far from over.” Large-scale infrastructure and international The intense desire for convergence, the unprecedented prosperity of popular culture, and the violent turmoil of social classes are like the savage bones of adolescence, and growth pain is inevitable at night. Therefore, the narrative of the 1990s, which was constructed at the time of the puberty 80, was not really suspicious.
Digital imaging, teacher-student relationship, water pollution and blood diseases, tutors squeezing students, “honest people”, the downturn in the stock market, and doctor-patient contradictions. These ultra-rapid abrasions and pains in the rapid development of the 21st century It seems that the end of the book has become an obvious science, as if the metaphorical scroll of two or three decades was deliberately written in the era, and it is finally seen today.
For the children who “play alone in the early winter evening”, perhaps the roar of the past is nothing but the “background sound of loading and unloading steel bars.” Those who have witnessed it all know how to understand, until they look back, they did not know that they were born in a “big era.” Today, we look back to the 1990s, not to gain some kind of sudden hindsight, but to rebuild the mentality of ordinary people after the earthquake in Jiang Yan’s report in “Dony”, like “every writer “Create your own pioneers”, rebuild your own experiences and memories, and try to trace back where everything is happening.
At the moment when the world is preparing to go to 2020, we dive into the memories of the 1990s in “Carp I Go 2000”, which is also what the post-80s writers gave to the gradual youth. A collective inspection, trying to trace together how the experience at that time affected the current self.
《Steel Piano》
In the 1990s, my peers and my parents still believed that struggle can change some fate
Regarding Taiyuan, I have always had a stubborn impression that Taiyuan was a very rare place in my childhood. Of course, this impression must be wrong. But there is a picture in my mind. There are very few people. I am surrounded by gray. I am only seven or eight years old. I play alone in the early winter afternoon. I am the only one. Occasionally, I have a passerby who has nothing to do with me. Here, there seems to be a sound of loading and unloading steel bars in the ear, which is the background sound, which is a very ingrained picture of childhood.
Although I know that this picture is unlikely to be true, because there was probably no large-scale construction in our place in the 1990s. The large-scale construction was after 2000 and coal prices rose. But until 2017, I arrived in Detroit. There are very few people in the suburbs of Detroit. At dusk, this industrial city that has gone bankrupt has a desolate feeling … At that time, I was very excited: yes, yes, my childhood in my memory is like this! This is it! This is an important memory for me.
《Steel Piano》
In fact, I grew up withOnly then did I feel that Taiyuan was good. We are not big there. An industrial city has actually changed a lot in the last five years. Many roads have been built, and many patterns in my childhood memories have been retained before. I have n’t been back for many years. I do n’t know much about the current situation. In my impression, we in Taiyuan are very peaceful and not a place full of anger. I didn’t know it was precious when I was young.
In the final analysis, I think the urban spirit is first and foremost an individual spirit, and each individual’s effort is to obtain a life that is not disturbed. This process may be slow in China, but it is actually going on. As for the accompanying problem of loneliness, I think it is easier than solving a group of people who have to watch how you live.
A lot of the education that I received as a kid tells us that hard-working children can only leave home and go outside to see the world when they grow up. I do n’t know if this is the case elsewhere. Anyway, from my primary school to high school, the teachers said to us, “Want to go to a better place to live? Then listen carefully to the class!” — This is The norm in my teenage years. The so-called “better place” is a big city, a more prosperous and more developed place.
At a very young age, my dad was instilling an idea that I must go abroad to see. The world is big.
Probably because he happened to have a chance to see the United States and the Soviet Union in the 1980s. I think at that time Dad was actually a young man. He had seen a completely different world and had an impact on him. In this regard, he really has a great influence on me. He firmly believes that one must fight. Why do you say I have a father who dreams of America? He did not mean not to be superior, but to believe that struggle can get rid of his original situation.
I think this must be brought about by reform and opening up. My dad really changed the situation because of reform and opening up. This is also the case with my mother. In the 1970s, she worked in the factory for many years. After resuming the college entrance examination, she passed the college entrance examination and started writing. She then stayed at the university and changed a lot. So my mom actually believes this.
I think this is a particularly important foundation in the 1990s. At that time, people seemed to believe that struggle can change our situation more or less, or that through hard work we can have a better life, and tomorrow is Will get better and better. This is a deep memory for me in the 1990s.
In the mid-to-late 1990s, there was a round of laid-offs. Taiyuan may not be the same as Northeast, and it is not a particularly affected place. The impact of this incident on me and my classmates was not great, because Taiyuan ’s largest industrial area is a steel plant. HeThere is a small society of our own. Most of the neighborhoods I grew up in were children from places such as hospitals, post offices, and coal management bureaus. Most of my classmates in elementary school also came from these places.
When I was laid off, I was about fourteen or fifteen years old. I didn’t quite understand what was going on. I listen to adults chatting and say that is unemployment. For example, there are many such things. A family of three generations works in a factory, and then the factory suddenly goes bankrupt. This kind of thing sounds terrifying. I was thinking, what should I do?
But I still had a very naive idea at that time, that was, I felt that the children in this family would grit their teeth to go to college, and the situation would gradually improve. In the 1990s, many of my peers around me still believed that struggle can change some destinies. However, I didn’t think about how difficult it would be for a child with a loss of security to want to study well.
“Blizzard is Coming”
My dad did not forget to tell me when talking about this, “Look, the children of laid-off workers have no choice but to study hard. If you do n’t work hard, you should go to work for others , People will be better off than you. When you grow up, you will be your boss. Whoever tells you from childhood will only enjoy yourself. “
Nightmare. I really believed at the time. I might be a very unproductive person when I grew up, because I didn’t know how to work hard. I was too favored at home. Actually to this day, I also believe that if I live poor or poor one day, I definitely don’t work hard, of course, this sentence only holds true for myself.
It seems that most young people today no longer believe in the meaning of struggle. This is how I feel when chatting with readers over the years. Many children are only in their teens, and they already think what they will be like in life. Maybe because the house has become too expensive, it makes people feel awkward when facing reality. In the 1990’s, I didn’t even know that the house was going to be bought. Utopian girls were too ridiculous.
That was the first time I watched a play in my childhood. I didn’t hate bad people. It shakes a child’s view of good and evil
Apart from the laid-off events, such as the floods and the Three Gorges, I have no impression. I think those are news.
I have a memory. In 2001, after the college entrance examination, my girlfriend and I didn’t do well in exams. The two were worse than each other. Then the TV news said that Beijing’s bid for the Olympic Games was successful. At that time, I was really happy. I remember my girlfriend said, no matter what, there is finally something happy.
Although we are still so mournful, the joy is a very simple feeling. Because I knew that in the world structure at that time, China was not sufficiently developed at that time. People from China were basically the same as rural people. After seeing the successful bidding for the Olympic Games, I felt as if slowly and slowly, our country would enter the city. It’s a good thing.
Hong Kong’s return was originally a joy, but we are about to get the final exam right away, and I am not so happy. When I was in the second year of junior high school, physics was so messed up that I could never tell whether there were any lines on the pulley or the moving pulley. The despair overwhelmed everything. But I should have been heavily influenced by Hong Kong film, television and music. First of all, I think of two Hong Kong dramas, “Big Time” and “I Have a Date with Spring”. It was a drama that was particularly fascinating for me from elementary school to junior high school. I don’t think there is such a good TV show anymore. .
The big boys are Liu Qingyun and Zheng Shaoqiu, and the director is Wei Jiahui. Maybe young people don’t understand the meaning of this card. It’s really good. I have watched other Hong Kong dramas before, but “Big Time” is always the number one in my heart. It’s about the story of stock speculation. The actor’s final conclusion is that the only way to defeat a person who has been particularly lucky is to have luck better than him. This is cool, right? There is a line in it that I still remember. He said that the world is cruel. You are good to one person, and sometimes you are bad to another person.
Stills from “The Great Era”
I remember whether it was winter or summer when it was broadcast. Our classmates watched it and everyone would discuss it when the school started. At that time, a few of our children seriously discussed one thing. Did the good guy Liu Qingyun play go bad in the end? Some people think that there is, and some people think that there isn’t. This can be regarded as an inspiring discussion among the children. I felt it then, and now I don’t think so, he just wasn’t that simple.
That’s the first time in my childhood. When watching a play, I don’t hate the bad guys inside. It shakes a child’s view of good and evil. At that time, I felt that the good people in there seemed to have problems, and the bad people were certainly bad, but if those good people could take a step back and think about it, it would not seem that things would be really bad enough to be undone. When you grow up, look at the bad guy that Zheng Shaoqiu played is not really evil, but it is a fool.
Then I have a date with Spring. I watched it in junior high school and talked about the friendship between girls very well. In my eyes, the friendship between the girls is like that. It is not Gong Douzhai to grab men. At that time, these girls were great. Friends of a lifetime, singing and playing Mahjong at work, how happy! As for love, I don’t remember much.
《I Have A Date With Spring》
I’ve seen “I Love My Family” and I like it too. I can vaguely feel that Hong Kong and Mainland dramas are two systems. I don’t think it is good or bad. I mainly think that the accent is very different. I started to like watching movies after 2000, and I was not very impressed. The video hall has also been there, but it’s not that there are good memories there, novels, I have seen similar expressions in the big friend Keyang.
EVA (“New Century Evangelion”) should have participated in the construction of my worldview, and it has the same role as the cornerstone. I feel that later I became a formal baptized Christian. This seed may have been planted by EVA. It is not to say that you are directly aware of the existence of God, at least to start trying to assume a world where God exists. In fact, in the twenty-sixth episode of the cartoon, there has never been one thing said: Who sent the apostles? Maybe later, according to the party’s own opinions, but the work really did not say that the apostle is an existence that will always face, and did not explain where it came from.
“New Century Evangelion”
I remember that when I was sixteen, I knew when I looked at it. The apostles were sent by God, and then suddenly opened up and felt that I understood a lot. During the Antarctic expedition, humans took Adam and caused a second shock.
I don’t know why, it seems that I suddenly realized that it is a kind given by God. It cannot be said to be punished, but it is a price. Curious, exploring without permission, taking away Adam, trying to gain insight into God’s affairs. Human completion plans, beautiful settings, are really rare in literary works.
EVA talks about a lot of difficult attempts to make up, but I do n’t know how it will end or whether people will be made up and redeemed. The old version I saw was an open ending. Shinji said that maybe I could try to like myself, and everyone suddenly applauded and said “Congratulations”. Maybe it lays down an aesthetic tone for me. Boys and girls who explore the ultimate proposition in the eschatological atmosphere are the most beautiful beings. I just lived to the age of Misato Katsushika, but I did not bless Mr.
Then another influence is, if you want to be a creator, let’s see how far the Great God’s work has come. Take a look at the days of the 1990s, and then look at the present, Xin Haicheng can be a master. I have no opinion on Xin Haicheng himself but …
One more thing I believe, If one day the novel dies, the game will