The world is moving at a high speed, and women are involved. The awakening of “their” self-consciousness has become an important force affecting society.
Tiger Sniff sets its sights on a new generation of women who are independent and enterprising. They come from the fields of culture, technology and business, and in the interaction with the world, complete self-sustainment. Construction and reconstruction.
Perhaps, you have heard Sun Ling’s story long ago. The outside world is enthusiastic about condensing her life of the first thirty years into a bowl of chicken soup about the transition of classes—a rural girl’s struggle history. But she is far more brave and fragile than you think.
Tiger Sniff Young Works
Author Chang Fangfei
The light is dimmed, and only one beam of chasing light on the stage hits Sun Ling. More than 500 people in the audience held their breath and waited for her story. She ran onto the stage in three or two steps with a steady smile. But the trembling voice leaked the tension that suddenly became the focus:
“Thank you Shenzhen, and all the changes you have brought to me.”
More than a year ago, when the sound of TED Radio Hour in the earphones awakened her from the early morning in Brooklyn, New York, she would not have thought that she would soon be standing on the stage of TEDx.
People are keen to reduce her 30-year experience into a bowl of chicken soup about the transition of classes -a traditional rural family born in Loudi, Hunan, who did not enter the university, and after continuous efforts, got rid of The fate of battery factory assembly line women workers, until they were in the United States Google’s office, the annual salary exceeded 100,000 US dollars.
Rural, factory girl, Google, these keywords about low starting point and high achievement clearly outline a “inspiring influencer” person design .
But Sun Ling does not intend to accept.
“Don’t write me as if you are very powerful.” Referring to the Facebook interview that just ended, Sun Ling was anxious to explain to me, “That’s just a very ordinary communication, not that Facebook wants to dig me. “
In her definition, these 10 years after graduating from high school, she is just “from working to working to working”. Born in the countryside and working on the assembly line is not bad; being an outsourced programmer at Google and an annual salary of $ 100,000, that is, “making a screw in a project”, is far from an achievement worth showing off.
But the outside world has been waiting for her successful methodology. A high-frequency question is-what method did you use to get to where you are? “I have a ghost method.”
“I do n’t really like adding WeChat friends. The first sentence I received was to learn from me. This way I think too much of it and makes me stressed. I hope I am liked and recognized Because I’m very inspirational, but because I’m a worthy person, a real ordinary person. “She wrote in her diary.
Sun Ling seems to be either undervalued or overvalued .
Buffett once said that he believes in “internal scorecards.” In other words, he valued self-evaluation more than external opinions, which is considered to be an important reason for Buffett’s popularity in the stock market.
Sun Ling also has such an “internal scorecard”. So, she can maintain amazing stability like code in these bearish bullish .
For programmers, the core task is to find and solve problems. In the first 30 years of her life, Sun Ling did only two things.
At this time 10 years ago, Sun Ling had the most frustrated day in her life.
At eight or nine in the morning, the sun in the early spring of the southern kingdom shined on her. Taking advantage of the rare vacation of the factory, she planned to go to the city to inquire about software training institutions. The first step is stuck. How can she get into the city by car? Where should I go?
Not long before she got stuck, in 2009, “Times” magazine regarded Chinese workers as the cover of the year, and it praised the workers in Shenzhen with “ Resolute eyes, illuminating the future of mankind > “. This is a microcosm of China as the factory of the world.
If Sun Ling saw the magazine at that time, she probably would not agree with this judgment. Behind the “fortitude” is the high-intensity work of more than 12 hours and two shifts. She said: “I have to work night shifts half the time every month. So hard work makes me feel that my life is particularly slow because the work is very mechanical.” The long working hours have little returns. “ Under normal circumstances, I can earn 2100 ~ 2600 yuan per month. I worked 28 days in a month, and only made a total of 3500 yuan.
What’s more terrible is that she has to endure the alienation of the machine. The Shenzhen factory is all-inclusive, running, and under the guidance of maximizing the efficiency and profits of the manufacturing industry, Workers are not only manipulating machines and lines, they are also nested in them and slowly passing away . “I don’t see the future, and I don’t understand the outside world at all.” Sun Ling said.
However, she did not expect that not taking the bus was not the worst thing she had encountered that day.
While waiting for the bus at the station, a person walked in front of her and said: Do you need to change jobs? She followed him to an office without thinking about it. The other side heard that Sun Ling had not attended college and said that this condition was not good. She had to pay the money first, and then waited for their notice. “I heard that it was a deal. I gave money and he worked for me.” Sun Ling believed.
The other person asks how much cash she has with her. this problemIt made her faintly feel wrong, but she honestly took out 400 yuan. Finally, under the inquiry of the other party, Sun Ling went to the nearby ATM to take out the 1,600 yuan in the salary card and handed it to them.
Out of the office alone, she suddenly realized that she had encountered a liar. “I found that I didn’t get any guarantees, so I gave money.” Sun Ling became very frustrated at once, not only because she lost a month’s salary in vain, but also because she found that the closed factory let herself Loss of judgment on the outside world .
This incident finally made her resolve to leave the factory.
Bug has been found. Next, we need to De-bug.
Sun Ling remembered attending a free summer camp when she graduated from high school to learn elementary programming. Give the computer a command, and the computer will output a hello world. She did not tell the family, resigned, and decided to learn programming. There are three semesters of programming classes, and the tuition is about 30,000. But the balance in her bank card was only enough to cover the first semester tuition.
In order to maintain a normal life, she has worked part-time in KFC and small restaurants, and occasionally distributes leaflets. These incomes have just been able to meet food and clothing. The price is that her daily food expenses are strictly limited to 5 yuan, and most of the time she can only choose pie or some satiety food.
After completing three semesters of programming lessons like this, she got a job as a programmer as expected and had an independent workstation. There was no longer a roaring assembly line in front of her, but a computer surrounded by it. With green plants.
“I watched a Korean drama called” My Girl “when I was in junior high school. The people in it all wore suits and sat in the office. I think I should also find such a job.” Sun Ling wished.
A new bug appeared immediately. Sun Ling felt that she was not good at English and was not good at communicating. She contracted in the corner “not like a white-collar worker”. While learning English by installments, she took the initiative to meet many foreign friends.
The new language and new friends bring a new “luxury” dream-studying abroad.
In 2017, she saw a master’s degree in computer science from a university in the United States. The application requirements are basic communication in English, a certain programming foundation and work experience. It took her 7 months to save up to 100,000 deposits. Successfully arrived in the United States and started studying.
In 2018, after three rounds of interviews, Sun Ling wished to become an EPAM employee and sat in Google’s New York office. The boss of Google once revealed the reason for choosing her-You always figure out what the problem is first.
Finding the problem, and then solving it with super action, this is Sun Ling’s sacrifice .
Respect is a high-frequency word mentioned by Sun Ling and her internal driving force.
A few months ago, Sun Ling cried for a “trivial matter.”
The boss wrote a scheduling plan for the upcoming demand. When he shared the link to the document, Sun Ling found that he did not have access rights and needed an application to open it. After looking at the reviewer list for a long time after opening it, she found that she was still excluded.
She thought for a long time and decided to express her dissatisfaction directly in the document:
I’ve been working on this project for almost one year, Even though i am a TVC. I may don’t have any good opinions or comments on this doc. I still felt a littile bit unappreciated. The project team has been working for almost a year. Although I am not a regular employee and I may not have any better opinions or suggestions, I still feel that I am not recognized).
Although the boss apologized and her name was added to the review list, Sun Ling cried.
“ I need to be respected, I need to be recognized, I need to be grateful .” She wrote in her diary.
Even she likes the ultimate frisbee (frisbee) The reason for this sport is- embodies fairness and mutual respect Movement spirit .
The desire for fairness, identification, and respect stems from a long period of time, and with her is nothing but contempt, opposition, and doubt .
When her brother who graduated from elementary school at the same time begged her parents to stop studying, Sun Ling also lost her chance to go to school. Because her father said “ Girls are useless for reading “; she stalemate with her father for a whole year to return to school, until her family and friends persuaded her father to finally agree to her junior high school; When she chose to leave the factory and assembly line, the family collectively opposed her, thinking she was wayward; when she quit her stable programmer job and decided to go to the United States for further studies, the family immediately asked after hearing the how did you still study ?
She even angered her brother because of her father’s “principal son preference.” He can drop the opportunity at will, but Sun Ling has to do her best to fight .
In the past, she did not even dare to ask her parents directly why she refused to let her study.
Love doesn’t go well. Sun Ling found that she was always blamed. When the other party quarreled, she said to her with contempt, “You haven’t even received quality education.”
“If two people can’t respect each other, but just hurt each other, this is a toxic relationship.” Sun Ling said. Eventually she decided to break up.
Over time, in the long-term lack of self-confidence and self-doubt, she always thinks she is incompetent and unworthy of being appreciated.
Even if TEDx’s speech is successful, she will say in her heart:
“The last lecture was not messed up, a large part of it was because of the correct mentor guidance and the planning team behind me to trust me … not because of my personal ability and talent. If I have the opportunity to speak next time, without these guidance and support, I might mess up.
Image from Sun Ling
As she grows older, she also slowly learns to get along with inferiority and the past, and learns to “forgive herself and take it down.”
She tried to chat with her father to let him know about her life in Shenzhen and the United States. They can also calmly talk about their former lives. “They were really without money at that time.” Sun Ling said.
My father can only do carpentry during his leisure time. When he is young, he earns two or three yuan a day. He is lucky but only gets a dozen yuan. All income is added up throughout the year, just barely enough. Many years later she knew that the money for buying new clothes in middle school was obtained by her mother through selling blood. She realized that perhaps parents had their helplessness.
Despite various constraints, Sun Ling still works and lives in the United States smoothly.
“Have they ever expressed their pride?”
This traditional Chinese family still shows shame. “Few people in our village go abroad to study and work, and they are very proud of me. My dad probably carried me and told others .” She said.
Sun Ling said she is a programmer who loves toss. Life is endless. Google programmers didn’t stop her, she started to discover new problems.
I find that there are no new friends and it is difficult to integrate into the Western communication circle. She started the New York street mining program. Holding a mobile phone to randomly find passersby, they may be psychological counselors, street singers, elderly people attending sister trials, and her problems are strange.
Picture from Sun Ling
What’s it like living in New York?
How did you get through those hard times?
At what point did you know that he can be with you for life?
But not every question can be answered quickly like an interview.
Sun Ling recently wanted to switch to learning machine learning-related content. She has a lot of new knowledge. She doesn’t know if she can quickly understand it. The upcoming interviews with formal Google employees are difficult. Passed; the communication of the Facebook position was finally stuck on the visa requirements. Will other companies hand her olive branches?
But don’t worry. Sun Ling can always find a way in uncertainty. “Do as many resources as you can,” she always said.
Last year, Sun Ling watched Frozen 2 and she wrote down her favorite lyrics, which was also her voice:
I won’t look too far ahead
it’s too much for me to take
but break it down to this next breath, this next step
this next choice is one that i can make
I do n’t want to look into the distance, because this road looks too long for me,
I take a deep breath and take a step forward
This is what I can do now.
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