This article is from WeChat official account:Book List (ID: BookSelection), author: light cloud, drawing from the head:” human disqualification: Dazai and three women “
A while ago, the stalk of “net suppressed the cloud” became popular on the Internet, and netizens ridiculed those hypocritical behaviors of “listening to a song in NetEase Cloud and leaving a disappointing message”.
The “depressive town” left on NetEase Cloud must belong to a piano piece called “Disqualification in the World”. More than 50,000 messages are all negative, but they all support each other.
The inspiration for this piano piece comes from the novel “Disqualification in the World” of the same name. This book has always been a typical representative of the funeral culture.
It is gloomy, dull, and deformed. It is a book that is completely “depressed”, a model of negative energy, and a “bible” of mourning culture in the hearts of decadent young people.
But it can become a masterpiece and is very popular, and it has been included in various editions of “Life Must Read List”.
Shu Shan Jun wants to talk about this “first funeral book in history” today.
For our ordinary readers, why is this thoroughly lost and painful book worth reading?
After reading, maybe you can understand, why we hate groaning without disease, but we need to get closerstrong>, this kind of real and dangerous decadence.
An abyss exists in everyone’s heart
Shu Shan Jun has many young friends who love “Disqualification” very much. Just talk about this book and its author, Osamu Dazai, and they all seem excited.
However, more traditional parents tend to think otherwise. As long as the child is reading this book, the parent’s response is usually: What kind of book are you reading? Don’t read it. The protagonist of this book is simply sick.
Yes, “Disqualification in the World” is a sick writer who wrote sick stories.
The protagonist Ye Zang is the son of a wealthy man.
From the perspective of ordinary people, his childhood was actually very happy. I never get hungry. I often have luxurious meals. There is a nanny at home to take care of daily life. My father is an official who has a villa in Tokyo. Every time he returns to his hometown, he will bring him a gift. My brother and sister also love him very much.
But Ye Zang has feared humans since he was a child.
He was afraid of seeing the seriousness of his family. Every time his father asked him what gift he wanted, he had to think about it. He didn’t dare to tell the truth of “I still want a book”, but pretended to be innocent. Look like a toy, or toys that are not interested.
Ye Zang doesn’t know how to get along with others sincerely, the best way he can think of is to be funny.
Make yourself a clown, telling insincere jokes, just to make the final courtship to the humans he fears. This way made him complacent, thinking that he had found a way to survive, but it actually made him more painful.
His worldview has become more and more deformed. At the age when he should have learned to be honest with people, the only thing he learned is to think that getting along with people is just to make others laugh.
From this level, Ye Zang is actually a serious avoidant personality, for fear of making people in contact with him a little unhappy.
He said in the book:
No matter how much I don’t like what others give me, I will not refuse it. I dare not say clearly about things that I hate, and tremble like stealing things about things I like. I feel distressed under the painful taste and unspeakable fear.
In other words, I don’t have the ability to make decisions. I think that the reason why my life will be shameful in the future is mainly because of such a personality.
People who don’t know how to make choices are destined to be tragic in their lives. Everyone will pinch him as a soft persimmon.
After becoming an adult, Ye Zang left home and went to live in the big city alone. He made a wine and meat friend who drank together, and found what he wanted to do more. To be a painter, because in painting, he can unabashedly paint what he really is inside—an ugly monster.
Because of his melancholy temperament, funny talk, and handsome appearance, he found himself particularly attractive to women.
For someone who doesn’t understand rejection, this is yet another source of pain. He was just like thatShe became a little white face, mingled with prostitutes, widows, and bar-keeper ladies, and let them sell clothes for wine and drink when they had no money.
It’s not bad for the remaining life to be like this, but Ye Zang’s misfortune is that whenever he manages to lead a stable life, new things will come to him.
The widow who lives with him encourages him to die together. He agreed, and the two threw into the river. The woman died, but he survived.
A pure little girl fell in love with him. He was moved by him. He began to trust others for the first time. After marrying her, Ye Zang saw his wife sleep with other men in person. He described his seeing Is “two animals”. In order to escape the pain, he became addicted to alcohol again.
In order to stop drinking, he went to the pharmacy to buy some medicines, and was encouraged by the pharmacy proprietress and became addicted to drugs.
When he was twenty-seven years old, he was already gray-haired, and most people thought he was over forty years old.
Ye Zang said:
Now I am neither happy nor unfortunate.
It’s just that everything will pass away.
In the past, I have been living in a human world like hell. This may be the only truth.
Everything will pass.
Nothing is always there, whether it is pain or happiness. Everything will disappear.
This is the only truth that Ye Zang came to in his painful life.
The dangerous and charming Ye Zang
“Disqualification in the World” is indeed a strange book. It does not give the answer to “Why Ye Zang Become This”. It seems that he was a freak who couldn’t feel happy since he was born.
What is the point of writing such a person?
Actually, “Disqualification on Earth” is not about how a person can lose happiness step by step, but about what it is like to experience a happy life at all.
For ordinary people, it is easy to get happiness when they are young. A candy, a hug, a toy, and a compliment from our parents will make us happy for a long time.
When we fell in love for the first time, we had the most profound experience of love. Every action of the other party will lead to our emotions. With a little love from our lovers, we will feel that the world is so beautiful and life is full of hope. When we fell in love for the first time, we would fall into the abyss again, feeling a gloomy future.
But the older you get, the passionate emotions tend to be converged, and replaced by more rational trade-offs and more realistic considerations.
At that time, we would say that we “seem to be dull for happiness”.
It’s not that I don’t care, nor is it insensitive, but after feeling hurt, I hide the softness of my heart.
And Ye Zang, at the beginning, there was no innocence belonging to children. His life is a complete counterexample to readers.
When I was young, my father went to Tokyo, and he would write down the gifts the children wanted in his notebook. Brothers and sisters can truthfully say what they think, and when they ask Ye Zang, he doesn’t want anything.
But my father’s face sank and asked him, do you still want a book? A toy is very interesting, don’t you want it?
He didn’t really want to, but he just couldn’t tell. Father finally decided to buy him a book.
After his father fell asleep at night, Ye Zang secretly ran to find his father’s notepad and added the name of the toy to it. “In fact, I want books more,” he thought in his heart.
But I didn’t want to see my father disappointed, so I chose toys.
After he married his wife, he saw his wife sleep with other men. The reaction of the average person should be anger and sadness. Ye Zang only felt fear.
He said:
Since that night, I started to turn my head as a teenager, gradually losing confidence in everything, gradually feeling endless doubts about people, and forever staying away from all expectations, joys, and resonance for human life.
In fact, this is the most critical event in my life. I was struck between my eyebrows with a stab in the face, and since then, whenever I come into contact with someone, the wound has been painful.
It’s no wonder that such a person would say the famous phrases “I was born, I’m sorry” and “The coward is afraid of happiness, and he gets hurt when he touches cotton.”
But why can such a person resonate with thousands of readers?
Actually, each of us has a Ye Zang in his heart. That is a symbol of depravity and darkness.
I don’t know if you have ever felt this way. Standing on the top of a tall building without fences, or on a stone bridge with gurgling water, looking down, although I feel scared, there is a primitive urge to jump down deep in my heart.
Or, after a busy day of work, before going to bed, your boss suddenly asks you to work on a new project. At that moment, you might just want to shout out the most nasty words, and then quit, completely ruining your current life.
Of course we don’t really jump, and we seldom scold it directly. But that kind of desire to fall into the abyss, to degenerate, and to destroy oneself, is a primitive impulse that exists in everyone’s heart.
“Disqualification in the World” is a concrete manifestation of this degenerate desire. We cannot bear the cost of that fall, but in a book, it is safe to see the fall and fear of others.
It can be said that we, as readers, let Ye Zang replace us to feel pain and despair.
mourning, just to make it easier
The “Disqualification in the World” is regarded as a representative of the funeral culture and is also related to the author Dazai Osamu. Some people say that this book is a semi-autobiographical work by Osamu Dazai.
Osamu Dazai himself is as sensitive and suspicious as Ye Zang, longing for love but afraid of love. He was also born in a wealthy family. After he was more than 20 years old, he was extremely depressed and attempted suicide five times in his life.
After “Disqualification in the World” was published, he and a female reader committed suicide at the age of 39.
Although both Dazai Osamu and Ye Zang are too extreme, there are never a few young people who are fascinated by their culture.
They lurked in the normal crowd, working diligently in front of the social animals during the day, and at night when no one was disturbed, the negative energy accumulated in their hearts burst out. The only outlets were crying, reading, and opening the legendary “net”. “Yuyun” looks for similar.
Many older generations are actually very incomprehensible. Why do young people nowadays obviously have higher living standards, better quality of consumption, so rich material conditions, and they still lose every day?
On the contrary, there is another kind of person who can never get close with negative energy. Whenever they feel discouraged, they immerse themselves in inspirational and positive energy, avoiding the black hole in their hearts completely.