This article is from WeChat official account:Do not reject by category (ID: nfccmzk) , author: Zhu autumn, editors: Sarah, the original title: “those who drowned in PubMed pond”, head – source: “youth camp”
In mid-March, the national line for the postgraduate entrance examination was announced.
3.77 million candidates ushered in their pass for the postgraduate entrance examination. For many people, this is the result of preparations for two, three or more years.
Liu Jing, who took the second postgraduate entrance examination, did not check the score line-she was preparing for the IELTS test a week later.
“Crossing the national line does not mean you can be admitted to the school, but it is equivalent to a consolation prize. The country recognizes your efforts.” She explained by quoting a Weibo netizen.
On December 22, 2020, the day after the postgraduate exam, she realized that she did not pass the exam well. Those words that once inspired me are no longer counted, and the line of defense in my heart slowly collapses. In order to go to school, she hadn’t played WeChat for two years, refused to go out to socialize, and hunched down in front of the desk for a long time. As a result, she gained nearly 20 kilograms in weight.
The postgraduate entrance examination is not “you can go ashore with hard work.” She used to think that the exam was like a race, crossing the finish line, everything had its own arrangements. But after two failed postgraduate entrance examinations, she likened it to “a path to a black single-plank bridge, and a small foothold.”
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There are more and more candidates like Liu Jing. The results of the 2020 postgraduate entrance examination released by a well-known education website show that non-graduate students accounted for 48%, nearly half. Among them, 35% of the population participated in the postgraduate entrance examination twice or more.
The data released by the Ministry of Education is also quite intriguing: The proportion of non-graduate students in Hebei Province in 2015 was 29.3%, and by 2019 it has risen to 44.2%.
The proportion of people who have taken the postgraduate entrance examination for many times has increased, and more and more people express their confusion. On Weibo, the postgraduate V teacher emphasized word by word-“If you can’t go ashore at one time, it will be futile to come several times.”
After persisting in the postgraduate entrance examination but experiencing several failures, these adults are faced with problems such as peer pressure, age anxiety, and difficulty adapting to society. But they all have a unified answer: no regrets. A graduate degree is a must for them in life.
“Do it again”
For three years after the postgraduate entrance examination, Li Xiyue, a graduate of a University of Finance and Economics in Dalian, always missed herself during World War II.
I want to take the postgraduate entrance examination, just to improve myself when I am still young.
She didn’t feel great frustration until the first year of postgraduate entrance examination results came out. Li Xiyue felt unwilling to see that many students around him went ashore one after another. She attributed the reason to her failure to devote herself fully-there were too many senior courses, almost naked exams.
“As long as I work hard, is there anything I can’t do?” After the second postgraduate entrance examination, she was determined to prove herself.
Since July 2018, Li Xiyue ran to the study room of the university next door every day, from 7 a.m. to 10 p.m., reviewing unswervingly. For this, she downloaded an app known as the “focusing artifact”, which stipulates that she can only touch her phone after 3 hours of study. The function of the software is that every time the goal is completed, the screen interface will have a variety of trees. If the goal fails, the tree will be destroyed.
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She remembered that “there is only postgraduate entrance examination in life” at that time. She often learns to the classroomThe security guard came to lock the door, and the body was too stressed to vomit after meals for two consecutive months. That year, she also received a friend request from two boys.
These are all boys in the study room. They said that she was very focused and bounced home as soon as she finished her study. “The state of study is very encouraging.”
Such dedication made her feel confident. Li Xiyue believes that since childhood, there is everything you want in life, and the results of the postgraduate entrance examination should have been like this. After the written test, she went to ski, travel, fall in love, and waited for the retest notice in February with peace of mind.
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However, the result was not satisfactory. She fell into self-doubt and confusion. She was still preparing for exams at work, and she was crying and thinking. In the end, Jin still refused to admit defeat and defeated other distracting thoughts.
Except for the professional courses “a little bit worse”, her other grades are very good. “Do it again, it will definitely be possible.” Li Xiyue firmly believed.
Liu Jiaqi, a graduate of the class of 2017, is determined to take the postgraduate entrance examination every year because of unwillingness. She studied Chinese literature at Soochow University and has a strong interest in linguistics. The goal of the postgraduate entrance examination is Renmin University of China.
She has a natural “prestigious school complex”. Even though she knows the difficulty of entering the National People’s Congress, she replied unceremoniously in the face of others’ admonitions that “Don’t be too stubborn, take a master’s degree is enough.” I want to play with famous school students.”
Four years of preparation for the exam, she participated 3 times, and once gave up due to excessive pressure before the exam. In the fourth year of the test, she repeatedly asked herself: “Am I really not good?” At the end of 2020, when she realized that she failed the test again, she began to feel that she was a loser.
“I am an undisciplined person,” she said. When encountering challenges in learning, two people often appear in her self-awareness, “one is a good person who is positive and the other is a bad person who persuades others to lie down.” After the two forces pulled and competed with each other, “The bad guys will always win.
After realizing that she was “not self-disciplined”, she decided not to take the postgraduate entrance examination in 2021 and enter the society.
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Wang Zui, who graduated in law from a certain 211 university, looks back now, and she chose to take the postgraduate entrance examination purely out of the thinking of “being a problem writer in a small town”.
That year, the people around her “either took the postgraduate entrance examination or the law examination”, and she wanted to “try both” to save herself more. Therefore, during the three years of fighting with the two exams, she had a mentality of “knowing that it won’t work, but insisting on doing it”. This kind of “twisting Ba” finally let her taste the taste of three failed postgraduate entrance examinations.
Failure also made her recognize herself: The enthusiasm for learning can only last for a short time. In summary, she thinks that it was the result of her “following the crowd” since she was a child, and “I will do what others do.”
In front of the subjective questions of law for the postgraduate entrance examination, which emphasizes memorization, Wang Zui studied for three years before he was willing to admit, “I am really not good at memorizing.”
stress
For non-graduate graduates, “supporting themselves” is a long-standing concern for them.
Liu Jiaqi has realized since college that her family’s financial conditions cannot support her to study abroad. To realize the dream of a prestigious school, you can only rely on exams.
Her persistence has puzzled many relatives. Mother is the one who opposes the most.
Starting from the second year of postgraduate entrance examinations, the “full-time exam” has often become the fuse of the conflict between the mother and daughter, and the mother will choke her: “You have no job, I raise you, and you are not obedient to me?” /p>
Liu Jiaqi said that every time she hears a harsh sound, her belief in the target will increase. “This is why I must succeed. “
Preparing for an exam is like riding a roller coaster. Sometimes Liu Jiaqi is full of faith and hope, and sometimes she is overwhelmed by stress and anxiety. During the last two exams, she obviously felt depressed and locked her throat. She couldn’t breathe every day, and her ears started to have neurological tinnitus. Walking on the street, she couldn’t help but imagine that a car suddenly rushed out of the intersection, “suddenly knocked me into the air.”
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Under high pressure, my mind is clouded, and only the goal is clear. In July last year, the National People’s Congress announced the new direction of the department’s master’s degree propositions, and greatly adjusted the scope of the examination. Obviously, choosing to apply for the National People’s Congress at this time was extremely uncertain.
Liu Jiaqi still insisted on signing up. She believes that taking the same school for three years is her advantage.
But this time she still failed.
As she approached the exam, she found that she could not finish reviewing the newly-added professional courses, and she was so stressed that she “cannot memorize any content.” The night before the exam, she stayed up all night with tears soaking most of the pillow, and even ran to say to her father-“I want to abandon the exam.”
After tossing over and over all night, she finally walked into the examination room with the goal of “drawing an end to the past four years.” On the subjective question paper, she wrote a 500-word long essay, recalling her experience in the postgraduate entrance examination and the pain she discovered from it.
She doesn’t care about the score anymore, she just wants to express to the teacher-“It is not necessary to select talents through the postgraduate entrance examination.”
Liu Jing, who graduated from the China University of Political Science and Law, also believes that compared with the fairer college entrance examination system, postgraduate examinations are more dependent on the right time and place. “We like to say a word in the (postgraduate entrance examination) group. After reviewing for one year, your score will not rise as much as the score line.” There is only one wish to fill in, and I want to win in the crowd,In addition to scores, what is more important is the number of applicants for the same major.
Two years after the postgraduate entrance examination, she came to a rather pessimistic conclusion–“There are more and more people entering the postgraduate entrance examination, and the proportion of exempted students from prestigious schools is getting higher and higher. Yes.”
The proportion of enrollment in 985 colleges and universities has been decreasing year by year, which is exactly the current trend. Data from the Liberal Arts database shows that among the top universities in the country, the 2021 graduate enrollment promotion rate has increased compared with previous years.
For example, the exemption rate of Fudan University in 2020 is 30.4%, and that in 2021 is 33.8%. The promotion rate of Shanghai University of Science and Technology has risen from 24.9% in the 2020 class to 33.2% in the 2021 class.
(Source: Green Tower)
no regrets
After spending several years of youth, people who have tasted the bitterness of failure are saying-“No regrets”.
Wang Zui spent three years in the law exams and graduate exams, but found the charm of law in them.
For four years in university, Wang Zui was not interested in the law major he chose. “The teacher talked so much, I think everything makes sense.” She couldn’t think critically, and she also took a double degree in “International Trade” to make it easier to change careers.
Three years after graduating, she used “very interesting” to describe the law test: “It’s like a high school math problem. The process of solving is very happy, and it is more fun to do it right.”
In early 2021, when he learned that he had passed the subjective questions of the judicial examination, Wang Zui was so excited that he shed tears. She said that this was not “weeping with joy,” but sadness with grievances.
“Finally its turnI got my admission ticket. “With the blessing of lawyers’ qualifications, Wang Zui feels even more that it is necessary to take a graduate degree in law.
“Now that I have the admission ticket, why don’t you explore it further?” She plans to find a job related to a lawyer first, and when she is able to support herself, she will “enter the college that really trains legal talents.”
Liu Jiaqi is also calm about the current results. She believes that the postgraduate entrance examination is equivalent to graduating from her university in 4 years.
She learned to reconcile with herself, “Life is so long. If it takes longer to understand, it takes less time to resist.”
She hasn’t found a way to realize the value of life, but at least one thing is clear-exams are no longer the way to achieve her dreams.
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Unlike Liu Jiaqi, this year, Liu Jing, who failed the postgraduate entrance examination twice, intends to hurry to the end of the application season and study in Hong Kong universities. There is not much time left for her-before December 2020, studying abroad has never been put into her life plan. And now, she wants to ask the intermediary to write the application documents, find the teacher to sign the recommendation letter, and most importantly, pass the language test.
She felt physically and mentally exhausted after taking the IELTS test three times in three months, but she insisted: “It’s not enough to get a job after a bachelor’s degree.” The shortcomings of a bachelor’s degree are not only reflected in the threshold for finding a job and the basic salary. , What she cares more about is the room for improvement in follow-up career development.
Everything is based on career development. Liu Jing believes that there are more and more graduate students, so “undergraduates are less valuable if they are not.” She also cited an example. A civil servant with a postgraduate degree entered the post as a “four-level chief officer”, which “takes a lot less detours” than the first-level officer of an undergraduate.
Two years later, looking back at her postgraduate entrance examination, she will still remember the scene when she confirmed her registration at the National People’s Congress.
The trees on the campus are lush and the schoolbagsSheng ran from all directions.
Liu Jing was nervous at the time. She passed through the crowds of the campus. She imagined that she would belong here soon, and worried that this would be the last time she was close at hand.
Recalling this, she shared an article on psychology. The article marked the words of the philosopher Schopenhauer with key sentences:
“If you don’t want to be too miserable, the safest way is to not expect to be happy.”
(At the request of the interviewee, the characters in the text are pseudonyms)
This article is from WeChat official account:Do not reject by category (ID: nfccmzk) , author: Zhu autumn